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Carol H Tucker

Passionate about knowledge management and organizational development, expert in loan servicing, virtual world denizen and community facilitator, and a DISNEY fan

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Be warned:in this very rich environment where you can immerse yourself so completely, your emotions will become engaged -- and not everyone is cognizant of that. Among the many excellent features of SL, there is no auto-return on hearts, so be wary of where your's wanders...


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Today is the 14th day of the 3rd month and the 105th day of 2016.  It is also:
  • Abushibarei (Ryukyuan religion)
  • Ambedkar Jayanti (India)
  • Black Day (South Korea)
  • Celebrate Teen Literature Day
  • Children With Alopecia Day
  • Dictionary Day –  in 1828 Noah Webster copyrighted the first edition of his dictionary.
  • Dreams of Reason Feast Day  -- I never did get the hang of lucid dreaming
  • Ex Spouse Day:  I have three of these in RL – Bob [Tom’s father and we were married for almost two years], Chuck [Gem’s father and we were married for ten years] and Frank [he died almost 12 years ago and we were married for almost 20 years].  In SL I have had three partners – Revilo [for a little over a month], Sam [for a little over a year] and Searaven [for 2 ½ years and we were actually married in SL].  No, I don’t bear any of them ill will,  but I will admit that I am pretty indifferent to what is going on in Bob, Chuck and Revilo’s lives.  And yes, before you ask, I would marry again for the right person!
  • International Moment of Laughter Day
  • Look up at the Sky Day
  • National Dolphin Day
  • National Pecan Day
  • New Year festivals in South and Southeast Asian cultures, celebrated on the sidereal vernal equinox:
  • Pan American Day
  • Pathologists' Assistant Day
  • Reach as High as You Can Day
  • Takayama Spring Festival (Takayama, Gifu, Japan) – first day
Oh those Romans….   In 43 BC  Mark Antony, while  besieging Caesar's assassin Brutus in Mutina, defeated the forces of the consul Pansa, but is then immediately defeated by the army of the other consul, Aulus Hirtius..  In 1860 the first Pony Express rider reached San Francisco.  In 1865  Abraham Lincoln was shot in Ford's Theatre by John Wilkes Booth.    In 1912, the RMS Titanic hit an iceberg in the North Atlantic at 23:40 and sank the next morning ((did you know that there are folks out there who thought the Titanic was just a movie?!!)).  And in 2003 The Human Genome Project was completed with 99% of the human genome sequenced to an accuracy of  99.99%.

I have always differentiated between envy and jealousy – don’t know if my definitions are quite kosher, but for me it breaks out like this:  Envy is when I wish I had something that you have  -- I don’t want to take it away from you but I would like to haveit too.  Jealousy is when I wish I had something that you have  instead of you having it – I want to take it away from you.  Now it could be something tangible [money, a new car, the latest in tech, a home, etc.] or something intangible [an experience, a lifestyle, a relationship, etc.]. – whatever it is, you have it and I want it.

Recently  I heard the plaintive statement “I wish I had her life”  [who said it about whom is irrelevant] and it got me to thinking….  I have to admit that I have and always have had a lot of wants and like Luke, I have always had my eyes fixed on that horizon, dazzled with dreams of what could be.  These wants have resulted in envy at times and in jealous at other times,  but would I really want to fully embrace their lifestyle and actually plug myself into their life?  This isn’t an easy question for me – like the person who sobbed that bitter plaint, I know folks who are definitely living the Life of Riley when compared to my workaday existence.  My vision for these days in my mid-sixties was growing old more-or-less gracefully with my mate and included retirement with such activities as puttering about the living space, lots of traveling, going to museums/places of interest, visiting with family, and maybe some volunteer work as well.  Do I know folks that are living that life in retirement?  Yup.  Do I know folks who have money and travel all the time, even taking long weekends just to run down to the Dominican Republic to play golf?  Yup.  Do I like getting up and going into work every day and worrying about my budget,  constantly paying for dagnabit moments?  Nope.  So do I wish that I had their life?    Er…..  no, I don’t think so.  You see, if I could wave a magic want and plug myself into their life, then I would have to go back and change all of the choices I made that placed me here and now at this time and juncture, and I don’t want to unravel the entire tapestry of my life.  I may be guilty of the sin of envy, but I am not jealous, so thank you, but I think that  I’ll just keep playing powerball, living a 2nd Life, admiring pictures, listening avidly to tales and daydreaming…..





 

Today marks the 3rd month since Kula was put to sleep.  He was actually my first pet [other than a parakeet and some goldfish], and I still miss my little furry companion.  From one day to another, I waiver about getting another cat, but postponed any real decision until after 90 days at least.  Right now I am thinking about it and varying all the way from “absolutely” to “maybe not.”.  We’ll see how I feel this time next month, after vacation.


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