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Carol H Tucker

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Today is the 5th day of the 21st week, the 27th day of the 5th month, the 147th day in 2021 [with only 211 shopping days until Christmas], and: 
  • Cellophane Tape Day
  • Eat More Fruits & Vegetables Day
  • Joe Cool Day
  • National Grape Popsicle Day
  • National Gray Day
  • Nothing to Fear Day
  • Old-Time Player Piano Day – in 1796 James S McLean patents his piano
  • Red Nose Day
  • Sunscreen Protection Day
 Quote of the day:
"There are unheralded tipping points, a certain number of times that we will unlock the front door of an apartment. At some point you were closer to the last time than you were to the first time, and you didn’t even know it. You didn’t know that each time you passed the threshold you were saying good-bye."
~  Colson Whitehead, The Colossus of New York

As the days pass, I have become aware that there are more days behind me than in front of me, and I find myself trying to imagine the world without me.  I guess this is a function of age, or perhaps acknowledgement of accumulating weaknesses as I find myself physically unable to do things that just a few years ago I did routinely.  Back in December 2019, I was stunned to realize that I needed a wheelchair to navigate the theme parks – I had to use it like a walker, and a seat when in line.  The next time that I go, I think I’ll have to use a scooter as there seems to be a limit to the number of steps that I can take.  The enforced inactivity of the past year in isolation has made this worse, despite my attempts to exercise.  Can I reverse this trend?  One part of me is convinced I can do so, the other fatalistically accepts that this is the way it is now.

I’m beginning to look at my granddaughters and realize how old I look to them, and how little I comprehend of how their lives will move forward.  I worry about the world in which they will grow up, I worry about my son and my daughter as they deal with different challenges in their lives, even while I acknowledge that it has been a long time since I was present in their day-to-day lives.  Humbly I realize that when I am gone, there will be little impact.


Of course, even as a young kid I always said I was going to live to be 100.  71 years down and 29 to go!
Permalink | Thursday, May 27, 2021