a heavy day
Today is the 3rd day of the 41st week, the 8th day of the 10th month, the 281st day of 2019, and:
ON THIS DAY IN ...
- Ada Lovelace Day
- Alvin C York Day – in 1918 he single-handedly attacked a German gun nest, killing at least 25 and capturing 132 Germans
- American Touch Tag Day
- Headspace Day [Australia] – what if taking care of your mind was as “normal” as getting a checkup?
- International Lesbian Day
- National Face Your Fears Day
- National Fluffernutter Day – a fluffernutter is a sandwich made with peanut butter and marshmallow creme usually served on white bread ((since I had to google it I figured others might need to know as well))
- National Hydrogen and Fuel Cell Day
- National Pierogi Day
- National Salmon Day
- Own Business Day
- World Child Development Day
- World Octopus Day
1480 - Great standing on the Ugra river, standoff between forces of Akhmat Khan, Khan of the Great Horde, and Ivan III Grand Prince of all Rus, Tataro-Mongols retreat, leds to disintegration of the Horde
1769 - Captain James Cook lands in New Zealand (Poverty Bay)
1818 - Two English boxers are first to use padded gloves
1871 - Great Fire of Chicago kills 200 people and destroys over 4 square miles (10 square km) of buildings and the original Emancipation Proclamation
1927 - "The Second Hundred Years" silent short film was released starring Stan Laurel and Oliver Hardy, which marks the first time with Laurel and Hardy appearing as a team
1942 - Comedy duo Abbott and Costello launch their weekly radio show
1945 - Microwave oven patented
1958 - US performs nuclear test at Nevada Test Site
1964 - Ringo Starr passes his driving test
1965 - USSR performs nuclear test at Eastern Kazakh/Semipalitinsk USSR
1971 - US performs nuclear test at Nevada Test Site
1980 - USSR performs nuclear test
Yom Kippur starts at sundown this evening and runs through tomorrow. Tomorrow is my mother’ birthday; she would’ve been 92. It seems to me to be appropriate these two things happen on the same day as I always get introspective on her birthday, wondering what I could’ve done or said or been differently to enable my mother and I to have a better relationship, which seems quite appropriate for a day of atonement and repentance. I remember my last conversation with her a couple days before she died, if it could be called that, for she was too weak to even speak. I told her then that it was okay that she had made the decision to stop eating, that I understood her weariness, that I wished things had been better for the two of us. She just looked at me. Did she hear me? Did what I said make any difference? Although I got to say goodbye, I don’t actually feel like there was a resolution – but over the past six years I have come to understand that there couldn’t be any closure because the core issue was that my mother wouldn’t or couldn’t accept me as I am rather than as she would have me be.
Through the years, I have struggled with feelings of failure, but have tried really hard to make sure the weight of my expectations do not weigh as heavily on my relationships with my son and daughter.
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